02/22/2004/ break my bones.

i am dying dying dying at the technical 'college.' (HA! what a joke!) i've been working as a teacher's assistant and as a workstudy in the library.. and really the only reason that i am not gone from that place is because i desperately need the measly paychecks i get.

i need a better job. i made $123 last month. i ran around this week applying for jobs at a few places close to our apartment but the people's faces didn't make me hopeful. there are no jobs in tifton.

i've gotten my medical transcription and word processing specialist certificates.. i've been named to the president's list every quarter.. i've been inducted into the 'national vocational-technical honors society'.. there are no jobs whatsoever. i went to the department of labor and they had about five jobs listed as 'clerical'; they were mostly for hotel management or hash-slingers.

i'm fucking sick of this.

i've been planning and hoping that i will be able to get up to atlanta and into georgia state university by may.. but at this point i don't see it happening. i need money before i can do anything.. and i can't make any. my mum isn't paid nearly enough for the shit they put her through but it's luckily enough to pay most of the bills..

eh. whatever. :D i've been stressed and depressed lately.. and eating way too much of all the wrong things (namely bread. bad carbohydrates.) and so i have gained plenty of weight... guh.. my sugar's out of control yet again and i don't care a wit..

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1:49 a.m.
kat*~